A good reading... from Lowyat.Net forum

This is a very interesting scene which I found at lowyat.net ... just thought it would be a good read for NBTD day :) (http://forum.lowyat.net/index.php?showtopic=314851) extracted from this link

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Sorry, this will be EXTREMELY LONG to read. Ok, the other two topics that was posted by Pennywise is actually for me. These topics are inter-related. He posted it up for me because I could not register properly. However, this is the main thread. This is not hypothetical.

From the thread, What would you do? Common scenario, you can roughly get the idea of what's going on in my life.

I have a girlfriend, E of ~4 and half years. She is always flying cause she is an air-stewardess. Initially, we thought of marriage and talked about it. At first, she was excited with the idea. Later on, she said she cant settle down at the moment, she enjoys her career and would want to do that for a long time more. I am the same age as Pennywise, we are both 26 and my girlfriend is 27.

In the other thread, it involves my pet-sis strange behaviour, What does it mean, if she said this to you?, this was what happened recently.

My girlfriend is E. E and S are friends. However, S has been going out with me without E's knowledge. It happened because my girlfriend is very pretty, air-stewardess, a lot of her colleague is trying to woo her, including pilots. I am still not convinced that she postpone our wedding (initially planned for next year) just for career. I dont fly with her so I dont know who she mix with at work and off work.

While E is always away, S is always with me. Yes, S knows my girlfriend is E. After a while, I start to sense that S is falling in love with me. However, in order to control herself, she made me her pet-brother / god brother. Because E always disappoints me, I also start to have feelings for S but then I do not want to waste my relationship of 4 years just like that.

Last weekend, while E was flying in New York. I called her and she said I was interrupting her work. I was upset, so I went out with S.

On Friday night, S and I went to out for a drink. We met up during dinner, we talked, mostly about my relationship. As a pet-sis, she is very kind, offered help and advices, telling me she will always be around for me. After dinner, we went for some beers and we chatted till 3am before going back home. We got drunk, did some weird things like licking each others' arms and then laugh. I think we make out but dont remember what else we did but did not have sex with her even though Pennywise and my other friends think I am 'kam sau' that might have telan innocent S.

On Saturday, I met her up at 12 noon. We had lunch, went window shopping, had lots of fun. Talked about things, played, laughed, it made me feel like paktohing again when my girlfriend has always been too busy for me. Never around for me. We met up with S's colleagues, had a drink, chatted and then her colleagues left.

We finished window shopping and left 1-Utama at 5pm. As I was driving back home, I called Pennywise out for dinner. Since S wanted to come along, there was no point sending her home so S came over to my house to borrow some DVDs. While waiting for dinner at 7.30pm, she sat to use my PC to check mail while I went to bed to sleep.

After an hour, I woke up and found her sleeping next to me. She turned around and opened her eyes, she giggled and I just touched her hair and sayang her head. After a bit of conversation, S said "You can touch me anywhere except my private part." No lies. I was tempted to touch her all over but I think could this be a trap on behalf of my girlfriend, E? Or does she really want me to touch her? Why no private parts? Cause she not ready or cause she cannot bring herself to betray E, yet? In my mind, I think she can lay down on my bed to sleep with me, sure it may lead somewhere.

So, as pet brother, I didnt touch her. I thought of myself, for her, for my girlfriend, the triangle love problem, I just kissed her forehead and told her to rest. I went back to sleep and she slept closer in near me and hugged my arm. We slept together for 1 hour + without doing anything else. When Pennywise called, we woke up and went out for dinner. As we got out of my room, both my parents was at home. Both of them were shocked to see that the girl who walked out of my room is not E and has never met S before. But my parents are cool so dont mind that.

After dinner, Pennywise and another friend, L wanted to go up Genting to meet L's brothers who are already there. So I went along and S came with us. We started our journey at 10pm and got to Genting around 11.40pm. We had a drink in Coffee Bean at first. After a drink with Pennywise, L, L's brothers, L's brother's friends. S felt out of place and said she wanted to go walked around, go visit the casino, etc. So, I agreed to go with her cause the crowd was too noisy and I was still thinking about my relationship with my girlfriend and what my pet-sis, S has said to me when laying in bed with me.

So I went for a walk with S. Oh yea, I forgot to mentioned that she has an injured leg, not too badly but she was afraid other people in the busy casino might stepped on it, so I held onto her shoulder the entire time, to keep her close to me and to protect her from being stepped on the injury. For about 20 minutes, I held her shoulder and kept her close while she had her arms folded cause if she put her arms down, it will be in the way cause we are so close together. I asked if she mind me holding her like that. She smiled and said "Why should I mind?" So, I said I was just trying to protect her, which is the truth!

After that, she said walking with folded arms are uncomfortable. So from then on, we held hands - fingers across fingers like paktoh like that. My heart start to beat faster. Coming out of the casino, on the escalator, she asked "Do you feel like we are paktohing?" I pretend I didnt hear her and let go of her hand and move down on step in front of her. I am quite tall but not as tall as Pennywise, she stood behind me and gave me a neck massage, say I so sanfu drive them all up there. Asked if I was tired and etc.

Then she asked again "Do you feel like we are paktohing?" I replied "No." and she said "She feel a bit like it and she is very happy." She is very comfortable with me, thats why she made me her pet bro. Then we held hands again and walked back towards Coffee Bean, until near Coffee Bean, we both let go but our friends arent there anymore. So, I called L and asked where they are, they said they are in First World, walking around and is coming back to meet us.

I was tired, I sat on a chair and S sat next to me, I tilt my head backwards and closed my eyes to rest. S snuggle up near me and put her head on my chest. After a while, Pennywise, L and L's gf came. I drove them off to Gohtong Jaya and left them in L's brother's gf apartment there. Then we took a journey back home, just S and I in the car.

We drove back towards Kepong but MRR2 was closed that night so we made a U-turn, went towards Ampang, Cheras, Sri Petaling, Bkt Jalil, Sunway, Shah Alam and finally Klang. We talked about a lot of stuff. I was driving quite slowly cause we were low on petrol and I didnt want to pump. We talked and talked. The air cond got cold and I took a pillow from the back seat and gave it to her. She took off her seat belt and put the pillow between us and crawled over to hug me. I just kept quiet and pat her head, held her waist and drove home.

She told me a lot of things, secrets and family secrets that no other living soul on the world knows. Just before she got down of the car, she told me that we have spent 16 hours (from 12pm to 5am) together that day and it was the happiest time for her. I kissed her head and she hugged me again and left. I drove home, half stone, half guilty, half happie, confused, dunno what to do.

I called Pennywise and L for bah-kut-teh the next day. These two busybody was already laughing and teasing when we met. I told them everything about it, as they are my best friends, and in return to get sounding from them!

Dont ask me if I am willing to lose my girlfriend because I do not know the answer. I dont even know what she wants and its so difficult to speak to her. With S, I am so happy but I dont think S would take me as a boyfriend because all 3 of us, S, E, myself, sometimes Pennywise, L and L's gf go out together quite frequently.

I cant start a relationship with S because that will kill E off entirely. I think I love her already but I can still control myself for now. I just know that she is always there for me, being the man, I very sayang her, maybe as a sister, maybe more.

What should I do? Does she like me?

Key people:
S = my pet sis, also E's friend.
E = my girlfriend. Myself

Pennywise, L, L's gf, L's brothers are all keh leh feh.
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